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Thursday, June 28, 2012

Struggling...

My motivation over...let's be honest...the last 3 months...has been slipping away from me. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's because we're coming up on my one year anniversay of making a life change...or maybe its because I'm starting to feel more comfortable with my body and my life...or maybe...I don't know. Last night I was feeling hungry...which was stupid since I already ate an entire bag of chex mix after I had a healthy breakfast and lunch. But for some reason I ordered dinner and ate the whole thing...not something healthy but CRAP. And then I felt sick to my stomach. And unfortunately this isn't an isolated incident, it's happened a handful of times over the last couple months.

I don't know why...I sit back and I think about it and then I just get upset and I don't want to think about it anymore. I think it's another reason my weight hasn't gone anywhere over the last couple months either.

I feel ashamed about it...I don't like writing it now...but I feel like I have to. Today I ate very healthy and I feel good. But every day I feel like I am fighting against myself!! I am doing a great job with exercise. I am running and doing a lot more...and that makes me happy. I feel in that respect things are going well. But eating...that needs to really improve. I'm currently seeking motivation everywhere I can...

What helps you keep on track? How do I jump over this hurdle when it's me that's in the way!!

2 comments:

  1. Maybe you need a new reward. Is there something you really, really want?

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  2. The greatest goal of "getting healthy" also had the rewards of things like smaller clothes and more confidence. With confidence comes trusting yourself to have a "cheat" or a bad meal here and there. But it can easily turn into a cycle. I have experienced this: lose some weight and reach a goal, (rightfully) tell myself that it has to be OK to have an indulgence now and then, and then do it too often and slip right into some disordered and unhealthy eating again. It sounds like you are recommitting, and that's the firs and most important step! I also find that easing back into it is helpful: if I go from crap to veggies in one day, I fall off the wagon right away. Small steps!

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